Follow-Up (SGP Prom 2007)
As I mentioned in my earlier blog, I was a little upset that I didn’t get to have my first dance with BJ at his senior prom because he was part of the court. The reason this upsets me so much was because all the way up until prom I was nervous about having that dance and was scared shitless thinking about it. I couldn’t wait for it though. I was so excited when we got to the front doors of the Union station. I didn’t have this dance that I wanted during my high school prom, so I wanted to at least have it with my loved one this year because i’m getting way too damn old to be dating high school kids. Nonetheless, I didn’t get the chance to experience it, nor will I ever again, I guess.
On Monday after my initial posting I got really upset and decided to call BJ. His choir banquet was coming up so I figured I let him know ahead of time about something…
“Baby I know this is really stupid, but it’s really bothering me… can I have the first dance with you at the banquet?” - Tracy
[pause]
“Of course you can baby, you can have the first dance and the last dance, and any other dance…” - BJ
That slightly made my day better, but I still didn’t get the dance, at what is suppose to be one of the most special times for every individual. I felt like crap throughout the day and then later during the day decided to talk to BJ about what was on my mind. I went over to his house about 12:13am this morning and we talked. I was surprise at how quickly he understood why I felt the way I did and he explained himself in a way where he doesn’t totally deny being at fault or whatever. He acknowledge the problem, and actually understood it… that’s all it took to make me feel way better than I’ve did on prom night two days ago… and two years ago.
After we talked about it, (we were sitting down at the patio) I guided him with my right hand out of the patio towards the big open yard. We then slowly embraced as he apologizes again and quietly layed his head next to mine as we danced under the night’s full moon.
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